One of my favourite Rhodes' family traditions is to go to see a Pantomime on New Year's Eve. As I've written about on previous posts, I live with Major Depressive Disorder, which means I often struggle to enjoy plays, books and TV programmes because the issues raised might disturb me or because I worry about the back stories of the characters. For example, a character buying a dress might seem innocuous to most viewers but to me, it starts me worrying about their finances, and then my finances and then guilt, shame and self-hatred follow on their heels.
But pantomime is something different! For a few hours, I am able to forget about my illness and my worries and just truly enjoy the show! I don't sit in the audience worrying about what other members of that audience think of me, if I'm fat, ugly or a horrible person. I share the experience with the audience and enjoy it along with them. I can imagine that some readers might think that a 25-year-old woman should have grown out of pantomimes but I didn't have the same childhood. Though, my parents loved me so so much and I was never neglected or hurt. But my fears and worries swamped my childhood so much so that I just remember being very scared and very alone. When just walking to school is an almost insurmountable task, it leaves very little time to enjoy being a child. There is something so innocent (even with all the double entendres!) and care-free about a pantomime that works its magic on my depression and allows me to have the childhood I never enjoyed.
If any of the issues I have spoken about bring up anything that you want to speak about, please do feel very free to get in contact! If not, just sit back and enjoy the fashion!
|Enjoying fish n chips & mushy peas!|
|The bloke with his TARDIS!|
|My favourite pantomime dames!|
|My lovely cat Zorro!|
I loved mixing this gorgeous pheasant print polo with a tartan skirt. I got this polo from Joules in their sale! Though they have sold out, they still have lots of lovely polos in a variety of different prints and designs. Some with ruffled collars (me likey a lot!) and others with floral prints.
|Creme Bouquet Polo|
Skirt: New Look
Boots: Franco Sarto
Necklace: New Look
Brooch: Cath Kidston
What do you think?